Thought.

Rasty says:
Hahaha.
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Talking to people about getting fucked is alright man.
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But you need to keep it real.
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And yeah, you're right. There's more important things.
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Word up
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thats an authentic statement right there
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It's just like
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I'm here to better myself ya know?
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Broaden my horizons
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Interact and debate in a full manner
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Bounce theoretics and concepts off people
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And learn
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But that just aint so brother
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Am I wrong for dreaming such?
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What are these fevered dreams I so desperately cling to
Rasty says:
Not wrong at all man.
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Find another crowd.
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They're there.
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That be true friend
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Oh snap
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Talking to you
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has just reminded me I want to get a descartes book out
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Do it man.
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Any recommendations?
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Meditations is amazing.
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Haha.
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Great minds.
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Hahah
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Well
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Im coming to a close with analysis of mind
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by russell
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just read
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hmm what was it
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I forget
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a socrates book
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All choamsky is currently ouy
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out
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so its either descartes or dosteovsky(spelling)
Rasty says:
oooh.
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Both are good.
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Descartes is harder but I reckon you'll enjoy it more.
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I was reading analysis of mind in class
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like, I aarrive 40 mins early
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just to calm and centre myself
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and a guy comes in
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"Why are you READING before we have to"
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I ddnt know how to reply
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Haha.
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Man.
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Try relate to them.
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What did this guy look like he enjoyed?
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Not pulling his pants up, and wearing clothes not dissimilar to a palistinian even though he was fucking white
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Hahaha.
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Seem political at all?
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Clubber? Reader? Gamer?
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Fashionwise, yes
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But in terms of ideologies?
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Probably not so
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He wore the trendy sort of fashionista bullshit
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but if I were to ask him how he felt about modern thinking
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If he has ever stopped and took a look around
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Took in the lights and sounds
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Probably would have tried to punch me
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Haha.
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Man.
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Would you say you're pretty misanthropic?
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Unfortunately so brother
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Bad experiences with people made me jaded and a misnthrope
Rasty says:
That's fair enough.
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But.
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The way I see it.
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Hmm.
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I really doubt you think people are born, say, intelligent, or stupid, with one personality or another, right?
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Correct
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I think our culture and society warps people into fake, horrible people
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(h5)
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But what does the existence of people like ourselves suggest?
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There are a few people who fight the power, not wishing to settle for what our saturated media try to indoctinate us with, and wonder "What if?"
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If people like that exist, does it not suggest that the media is not, in fact, invincible?
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Does it not suggest we can take the lies and propaganda, dissamble them, and attempt to ascertain the truth of the matter?
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Yes
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But only to an extent
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Unless we are THERE in person
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Who's to say what gets reported is factual?
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Sure
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They show us the news and such
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But who's to say it isn't constructed by a very niche hegemony, who only want to show us "Their perfect world"
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I say it is. But you're right.
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You and I both know the media is run by a very small board of "Higher ups"
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Who arent right AT ALL
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They were just born with a silver fuckin' spoon
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People like you and I?
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We aren't satisfied with the....
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What would be the correct wording here
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Hah
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I guess something to the effect of
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Status quo?
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"Initial aesthetic of contemporary life"
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Ah.
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Man.
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That we exist, proves that we can break the mould.
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Well, all of a sudden, the indocrinated sheep who seem to be like our enemy.
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Well, they're brothers, sisters, allies waiting to have their eyes open.
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Treat them well man, they're just trying to live. And challenge their opinions.
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At least, that's what I figure ought to be our job.
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Maybe I'm wrong.
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At times
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I thank whatever higher power I have someone like you to talk to
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Challenging me and making me better my own sense of thinking
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But yeah
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I agree brother
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Sure I may treat people with an initial sense of....
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Distrust I guess
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Doesn't mean they are'nt brothers and sisters with different ideologies
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We are all in the human race together
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So to hold prejudice, anger, racism amongst people
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Despite the fact it's wrong
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It's just plain ignorant brother
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Sure, I may not agree with people at times
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I may even get angered by them
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But social heritage is something that needs to be shared
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Isn't that what we were born for?
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Free will?
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Also, I anger myself by ending my own sentences with propositions
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It's just bad English
Rasty says:
Fuck 'bad English' man.
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I'm feeling good vibes from you tongiht man.
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It's good.
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You're right.
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I'm happy I know you man, you're truly a good person Carl.
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At times i wonder if I should open myself to new people
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But you know how life is friend
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We subconcioussly shield ourselves from bad experiences
Rasty says:
So true man.
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But.
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We've got to consciously fight it.
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Trying to actively become aware of your own subconsiouss is a tough one
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The system works by alienating us, isolating us from one another with ridiculous notions that somehow ought to seperate us, 'class', 'sex', 'status'. Bullshit. Everyone is your friend.
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Agreed.
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I still can't really do it.
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Drugs do help.
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Meditation helps.
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But hey, that's where I know I can't do anything.
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You?
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Sitting down, thinking, and trying to be at peace
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I suppose that helps
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Meditation I guess for me aswell
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Furthermore
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Made a pretty good friend at University
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Who will actually listen to my nonsensical ramblings and actively participate
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Tried to brick myself in with getting to know people about what happened with Terese this summer
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But sometimes when I meet new people
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It's hard to explain, because it follows no logical conceptions
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Bar that of surrealism
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Sometimes I see people as ...who they really are
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Having OCD and anxiety and certain mental issues warps the mind so
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So when new people are met. sometimes they are appealing to me in a mental sense
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Hard to explain really
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But with Penny, was just...right
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She just sort of listens, not passively, but participates too
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It's nice to have ONE friend in real life really
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Fuck the norm brother
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Fuck "The man" telling us whats right, wrong, who to befriend, what to believe in
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I make my own beliefs based on myself, my emotive state, and those around me
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Sure I could die tommorow
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But at least I'll die for what I believe in
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I love you man.
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All of that.
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The sum total of that.
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Is so real.
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Seriously, man, I'm glad to know you.
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I'm definitely on your level.
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Let's do thsi.
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*this
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Ho ho.
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Whats the point in living
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If you can't feel alive?
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I'm glad to live in such a time at the moment
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Last year, university was drab
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dull
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meaningless
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Now I have a friend, someone to talk to, spend time with, feel things with, share theories with
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Brother, I havent felt this alive in a long time
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And I feel humbled
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And when you feel humbled by your own sense of self worth being aleivated beyond what you think you can be?
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It's euphoric
Rasty says:
That's amazing man.
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Maybe you'll understand this song on the level I think I understand it?
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http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=-nR2vsnH4Is
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Dunno if you can access youtube there or not.
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I can, but with 0 music abilities
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and on that bombshell
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I planned to leave here at 7h30pm
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But through an AMAZING talk with you
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I be still here
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So I humbly depart you this evening
Rasty says:
Man, it was great talking to you.
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Just remember, you never walk alone.
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We're both here, there's work to be done, so let's do it little by little.
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I'll see you later man, one love.
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<3
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Same to you friend
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As always, a fantastic talk
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I'm actually going to upload this entire conversation to my personal blog
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To share our thinking with Penny
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I think she'd agree with us to be fair
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Remember, keep it real friend
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and remember aswell
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Except our own thoughts, there is nothing absolutely in our power.
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Peace out